A fresh start

That is my mindset with this cycle, or at least that is how I’m putting a positive spin on my current state of cramps and fatigue. My most recent TSH didn’t show any change, strangely enough, so I’m now up to 75 mcg of levothyroxine a day. And unfortunately my resolve with going gluten-free is definitely weakening. I couldn’t resist a bite of hubby’s croissant this morning as I smelled it on the car ride home from Starbucks – from now on, if he wants one, he needs to buy it himself! I have no idea how I’ll survive our trip to San Francisco in a few weeks, with several foodie destinations on the itinerary.

In the meantime, I’ve decided not to let TTC get in the way of all the physical activities I want to try. Because they remind me to be thankful for the health and strength I currently have, even when I feel like my body is betraying me in other ways.

Food battles. And no more empire dresses until I’m pregnant!

The first time I met my acupuncturist, she strongly advised me to cut carbs and go gluten-free, per the advice in this video:

I’d already been eating healthier the last couple years due to wanting to stay in performance shape for aerial, but this video, along with the knowledge of many of my own patients having PCOS or menstrual irregularities due to poor eating habits made me examine my diet even more carefully. There is no question I have a sweet tooth (not uncommon with hypothyroidism, apparently), and if there is one food I would love to eat the rest of my life – it’s bread. Sigh…

So I now make myself wheatgrass smoothies to make sure I get good fruits and veggies in each day. I stopped buying bread, and started relying more on My Fit Foods (mostly gluten-free) for meals. At home it’s not so bad, but going out to eat has been really tough. I can’t imagine having celiac disease or a wheat allergy and trying to eat out! There are definitely more options these days where I live, but not with the more innovative restaurants catering to foodies. So I let myself cheat then. However, after 3 months and seeing minor improvements with everything I was doing, I decided I really need to try and be strict. If only I could easily find gluten-free ponzu sauce for our favorite shabu place…

Add in the fact that I have to take my thyroid medication half an hour before breakfast, and that calcium, zinc, and iron interfere with its absorption, I have had to watch my eating way more than I’ve been used to. It’s frustrating not being able to grab a quick yogurt or cereal in the mornings, and my breakfasts have to be planned the night before so that I can get out the door in time for work.

Also, I really don’t think I have much of a gut, at least compared to my skinny-fat years before aerial. But every time I wear an empire-waist style dress, a patient’s mother asks me if I’m pregnant! It happened again today. Agggghhh!! She felt terrible and actually apologized beforehand, but really, this is why I NEVER ask if somebody’s pregnant!! So sad, because I love my comfortable dresses for work :/